hi i just realise i only blog on weekend

haha time really past by so quickly one week past by again

and tml is cny le haix

haix , i am totally not excited for cny at all

totally dun have the feel

just feeling like staying at home alone do whatever i want without nagging scolding insulting

they want me to go ite n den they start saying it the end

i really dun wan to go ite but because of them i make this decision

then now ...

i really dunno what they want !

seriously i do thing they scold i dun do they also scold

i doing thing mum ask me go eat , so i stopped and i went to eat

but when i am eating so start scolding the thing so messy dun do , dun keep only know how to eat !

fuck i really dunno what u all want

my sis even ask me go to die since i cant do thing nicely

i have no space to put my thing so i decide to throw everything away

i planning to throw myself away someday

cny is so near yet me n my family is so far

there really many thing happen this few day , really really really i wish everything solve asap

k too emotional le

should blog something normal

16 Jan Mon

i dun remember what did i do that day

17 Jan Tue

went to nyp with jia yi , jianzhi , jinxing eng jie weiying

after that went orchard find jac cause she working

then meet Winnie n Bernard at cine

than shop shop

fetch jac end work than meet rp at bugis

went steak republic for dinner with Winnie , rhong peng , jac ,jianzhi jin xing eng jie weiying n Bernard den shop

me n jac went home first

because jia en call n say jie jie i going yr house find u

so i went home to play with her

18 Jan wed

take over Winnie to work at steak out

19 Jan thur

work at steakout

20 Jan Fri

movie at 9 pm - 孩子不坏

with konnie , jiahui , jac jinxing jianzhi eng jie wei ying bernard

den mac than home

winnie bring thing that dajie ask her to bring to me

thank yeah

21 jan sat

not a good starting today so just forget it

maybe cousin coming to find me to watch movie later so update later ba if i free !

ok bye !

same i nv check so u know

hi..

Mon 9 Jan 2012

this is the day i have to face what i have done for the last year..

as i expected i did badly for my O level

i fail my O level , 28 mark

tear drop , when i called mum

i know i deserve it so ok forget it den

because of the bad result i got , no poly for me den

mum want me to go ite

so i just listen to her , since my bro already think everything for me

sad thing....

all my friend are going different place

TO:

Winnie tan: i will miss you the most ok. we must meet up very often ok when u free la.

hope u study hard and study well, i want see yr design and talk to me anything when u need ok. remember i always there for u :)

dun forget me ok , but i will not let u to forget me heehee evil smile

as per normal i know u lazy to read all so ..

Lim jiahui : i dunno where u will end up now because the result haven out yet but i will miss u too.study hard too

play less date less ok focus more on thing that u are studying ok

text me when u know where u studying ok

must also meet up ok

sorry for nagging , scolding so much at u but i think with this nagging u grow up a lot

so u must learn to think more when i am not around ok be careful with everything ok

and dun forget me ok!

Lum rhong peng: i know u have to very study hard and

u must try yr very best this time.

dun give up ok, text or call when u need help for poa only

u cannot meet us because u need to study ok but we can go yr house to study with u

meet us after yr exam:)

konnie lim: i am really happy that u could go poly , study hard ok

and talk louder to yr new friend there ok

tell me what course u in when u know ok

must meet us out ok !

and dun forget me ok!

Tues 10 Jan

i am lost , dunno where can i go as i really dun feel like going ite that why.

when down steak out with jz to find Winnie first

Eng jie n jia hui overslept so they come later

chit chat and talk about our thing

web cam with rp there too cause she nv come

dinner at steak republic then home

wed 11 Jan

work at steak out

when i am otw home Winnie call n ask wanna go surprise zoe

so we went to surprise her with jin xing jian zhi Eng jie Bernard jia hui kiddo Winnie and some other

Thur 12Jan

happy birthday Zoe

went nyp and mdis today

Fri 13 Jan

work at steak out

sat 14 Jan

i Dunn remember le

sun 15 Jan

went out with mum

dam tired

chatting with rp Winnie and Bernard on msn now

webcaming too

i dunno how to face my relative during cny

haix i have to face the music

ok bye i am tired to check again so ignored my grammar mistake or any mistake ok

HI

First post in 2012

it a new year, i spend my first day , first min of 2012 with my best friend,friend, work friend at steakout.

although it end n start with mis-understanding, unhappiness ,trouble in our heart

but we still spent it happily

I drop my first tear of 2o12 on the first day on train for someone i use to care a lot.

but now ... the ans is no, not that i don't totally care for her any more just that

(from my own view) u don't treasure what u have. so why should i give u all my caring from my heart. i don't mean that my care is so exp that u must treasure it i just mean i think u don't need it so forget it i wont waste my time on u ( all from my point of view)

at least i found some one that know how treasure, appreciate what i did for her although i keep giving her trouble , irritated her with my indecisive and my family problem , and what i think because i love to think too much toward the negative way.

but she still care for me

this is why i treat her so nice that other cannot receives the same care

because she did the same thing to me

this is what i mean by a true best friend to me maybe she nv think the same way as me but i still love her so much and her name is WINNIE TAN <3

Winnie i wanna tell u no matter how u change u will still be Winnie that i love

and i love to be yr listening ear so talk to me man!

ok it sound like a confession but it just what i am thinking ok !

it too disgusting to say it out loud to u

and i know u will be lazy to read everything so i make it darker just for u because i don't y when i put colour it cant see when i post

unhappy thing happen on the first day

and continue and it still more to come i know i have to face it no matter how i dun wan it to happen o me.

but i have to understand thing happen with a reason and we should find out that reason in order to solve thing.

ok, forget about those crap first talk about my life for the first week of 2012

sun 1/1/12

wake up , at 3+

meet Winnie n rp at rp House about4 to accompany rp to buy laptop

we went changi point to eat first

eat +chit chat for about 1hr 30min

and after eating

we went to expo and she bought a laptop within 15min haha

ok first day of 2012 ended like that

--photo fb or rp blog ok--

Mon 2/1/12

Tue 3/1/12

wed 4/1/12

Thur 5/1/12

ok all date i listed about the life i have this few is just

EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT

WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP

ok as u see i eat more than i work i work more than i sleep

Thurs 5/1/12

Emma went back to Phillip

i almost die at work place that day

that day Winnie , rhong peng and Eng jie come and eat at steakout after they went for poly open house.

and went rhongpeng to chitchat n with my mac because it too busy that day so night No staff meal!

speak everything out is a good choice

Fri 6/112

today is finally my offfffff day !!

woke up from my sleep at 9 because there no electricity as it have be cut off for one hour

and i have no Fan so it hot

but fall asleep after awhile

and wake up by Joanna call at 11

and finally i wake at 12

went np with mum to settle my thing

and mum bought her new year clothes

and i bought two new shoes

went out with steakout staff and da jie at night

home by 1 am because mum say so

so i listen to what my mum ok!

haha k

it already sat 7/1/12

when i posting this

and seven of my 2012 is go end just like that

haahaa ok bye:)

REALLY LIKE FINALLY!

FINALLLLLLY

I REMEMBER MY BLOG PASSWORD !!!

HAHAHA

LONG time since i touch n updated my blog because i forgotten my blog password and i am so lazy to update!

OK, shall write some last thought of 2011 since today is the last of the year le.

- The last day of 2011 -

2011 is short n tired year for me.

whole of this year i am busy-ing with O level.

That why i think this year past so fast ! time fly!

Work time have almost cover half of my holiday!

2011 is a special year, many thing happen during this.

Thing change as the year go by, many thing/people come and many thing/people go.

Thing that i regret

i MISSED SHINee AND SNSD concert ! because of O level !

never work hard enough for everything ! will work hard next year !

did not spend more time with family.

did not listen to mum ,quarrel with mum n sis almost everyday :(

shall be a good girl on the first day of 2012 ba.haha

Thing that i will not regret but i will remember 4ever

FRIEND THAT I LOVE

spend some much time with them.

every moment is a good memory

although we will quarrel with each other , scold each other but i wanna tell u although i am maybe suck/bitch sometime but i still love u all <3

because i care about u all so i nag at u all like yr mummy something but i really wanna let u know i care about u yeah !

i also wanna say the last sorry n thank you for everything for this year , 2011 that thing i do to or thing that u help me.

To: all my love friend :)

OK BYE !